{"id":1791,"date":"2023-12-31T20:00:36","date_gmt":"2023-12-31T20:00:36","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/?p=1791"},"modified":"2024-02-22T20:02:45","modified_gmt":"2024-02-22T20:02:45","slug":"to-think-that-ive-wasted","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/?p=1791","title":{"rendered":"To think that I&#8217;ve wasted&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\r\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-1827\" src=\"https:\/\/prousty101.files.wordpress.com\/2023\/12\/camera-obscura-teal.png?w=1024\" alt=\"\" \/><\/figure>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>It&#8217;s a topsy-turvy world, Proust&#8217;s is. Hopes dashed. Or else you possess and then you no longer want.\u2002Here I am writing this whole blog, hoping I can get my ideas out there, and now that I&#8217;m doing it, I&#8217;m feeling dispossessed. Like I&#8217;ve clung to this idea I&#8217;ve had- the question I&#8217;m asking- for so long, <!--more-->kept it hidden. Now a fair amount of it is out there and I&#8217;ve got nothing. No quiet little secret I&#8217;m carrying within. I&#8217;m half inclined to just erase all of this and forget I ever got going on it. Cause I&#8217;m feeling that Swann kind of feeling right now<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-1900\" style=\"width: 564px; height: auto;\" src=\"https:\/\/prousty101.files.wordpress.com\/2023\/12\/vitruvius-man-writing-copy.png?w=560\" alt=\"\" \/><\/figure>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&#8220;<em><mark class=\"has-inline-color\" style=\"background-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); color: #436498;\">To think that I wasted years of my life&#8230; for\u00a0a woman who did not appeal to me, who was not my type!<\/mark><\/em>&#8221; To think that I&#8217;ve wasted years of my life with Marcel Proust and he wasn&#8217;t my type. So many years.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>That&#8217;s not really what I intended to say today. I wanted to talk about camera obscuras and rooms, and projections, and how we perceive things. Then something about horizon lines, perception in a broader sense, perspective in a broader sense, how it&#8217;s not just about rooms and signs as in my whole theory about the Cygne de Cambrai and the Sign of the Room, about rooms and signs in relation to time.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>But I&#8217;m moving into &#8216;the order of years,&#8217; the world of 2024-beginning tomorrow, building on all that I&#8217;ve written up until now about my theory, doing my best to lay the points out image by image, point by point.<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-2108\" style=\"width: 639px; height: auto;\" src=\"https:\/\/prousty101.files.wordpress.com\/2024\/01\/img_2876.jpg?w=632\" alt=\"\" \/><\/figure>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>I guess it&#8217;s inevitable that the doubts are knocking at the door. Whether or not Proust is or is not my type, I&#8217;m going to do this. Starting tomorrow- diving in. Around 8 pages a day, 365 days. 7 volumes from start to finish.\u2002And writing whatever the hell I want, unafraid of what others might say. With panache!<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>Happy New Year, all!<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large is-resized\"><img decoding=\"async\" class=\"wp-image-1930\" style=\"width: 519px; height: auto;\" src=\"https:\/\/prousty101.files.wordpress.com\/2023\/12\/img_20160926_115301106.webp?w=812\" alt=\"\" \/><\/figure>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\r\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp; It&#8217;s a topsy-turvy world, Proust&#8217;s is. Hopes dashed. Or else you possess and then you no longer want.\u2002Here I am writing this whole blog, hoping I can get my ideas out there, and now that I&#8217;m doing it, I&#8217;m feeling dispossessed. Like I&#8217;ve clung to this idea I&#8217;ve had- the question I&#8217;m asking- for &hellip; <\/p>\n<p class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/?p=1791\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\"> &#8220;To think that I&#8217;ve wasted&#8230;&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"_uf_show_specific_survey":0,"_uf_disable_surveys":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1791"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1791"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1791\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2354,"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1791\/revisions\/2354"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1791"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1791"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/theproustquestion.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1791"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}